A smile doesnt mean im contented.
A laughter doesnt mean im happy.
I smile to make others smile
I laugh to make others laugh.

Beneath this smile, beneath the laughter, nobody knows.

The thousand knifes that cuts through the heart.
The tears it cries.
The sorrow it goes through.

Lost.
Confused.

An external wound heals.
An internal wound.
Stays there and cuts open with any remembrance.
Like hot knife through butter.
It never heals.

I HATE YOU.
BUT I LOVE YOU.

I WANT YOU OUT OF MY LIFE.
BUT I WANT U CLOSE TO ME.

I WANT TO FORGET YOU.
BUT I KNOW I DONT WISH TO.

I WANT YOU IN MY LIFE.
BUT I KNOW ITS PAST ALL THAT.

When u choose to come to my life, dont ever leave it.
They say its all part of life
To learn from it.
Yes im learning.
Much.

So anyone who has that thought of leaving..
I aint gonna beg you to stay.
Neither do i want you to leave.
Cause you all make up my life.

I have enough of Goodbyes.
And i have enough of people finding me only when they need me.
And when they dont, dump me aside like im some sort of garbage.

I have feelings too.
And at times i need You guys.

Dont treat me this way.
It hurts.


Heart beyond repair
My life treated like a funfair
My thoughts no one would spare
Alas, there's nothing else i can bare


Take me away, away, away into the far away away away land.