WARNING:THIS POST MIGHT BRING TEARS TO YOUR EYES

Okay as i read through a friend blog about childhood..I remembered my own..How nostalgic it was..Those were the times..The innocence of being a child..The loved you receive from merely everyone as they hold you up in their arms just when you were born..The love in my mum's eyes when she see me for the first time after carrying me in her womb for 9 months..I realised how much pain and suffering she went through that period..The trouble she got waking up in the middle of the night when i started to cry and yearn for my mum..Feeding me, making sure i wasnt harmed and that i was having a peaceful sleep.

As i grew up, i began to walk..I remembered how she used to guide me and helped me up whenever i fell and started to cry..Every step i took was a blessing..A blessing from my mum and my dad..

Soon i began to talk..Every word sounded cute to everyone..I recall the smile on my mum and dad's face when i first call their names..How happy they should feel that their son has called them 'mum and dad' for the first time.

However, as i grew up..I not only was able to do all this..I not only bring a smile to them..But i brought tears and anger as well..Since i was able to talk, i began to lie...Since i began to walk, i started to run away(from school and all)...

And now 17yrs on..I can still recall every single lie that i made..Every single wrong step that i make..How bad must my parents feel that their son that my mum carried for 9 mths with full of hope has turn out this way..

The disappointment in them could be felt no matter how they tried to hide it...

I noe that one of my life principle is never to regret a thing done in the past for it only gives hurt and pain..But how i wish to turn back time..correct the wrong into a right..

I miss my childhood..

How i wish i didnt grow up and still have the innocence of a child or baby whereby everything u do is deemed cute or if anything that u did wrong is being 'tegur-ed' lovingly..How i wish everyone can love me lyke the time i was a baby..I dont expect them to hold me in the arms but atleast embrace me with full of love..

If only time could be turn back..

I realie would like to use this opportunity to say that im sorrie to everyone reading this blog if i have done them wrong knowingly and unknowingly...All the sins that i have done..I wish you will forgive it and let us start anew..

We can never turn back time but we can always start anew..We can never have the innocence of a child always but we can have the maturity of an adult..We can never be loved all the time but we can always feel loved all the time..We can never avoid mistakes but we can always seek forgiveness..

So guys im sorrie..This goes to my parents too..Though they dunnoe this..I hope they forgive all of my mistakes in the past...